Aphesis

I found myself in tears while taking the exam, hating who I had become. But then, something happened...

Dear Friend,

We are almost done with '23, most importantly I hope you're smashing those goals you made a few months ago.

I have had such a chill year, I went through it all, this year. However, I stayed sane and held Jesus a lot tighter, He almost choked if that was possible only it isn't, there's always space to go harder and I won't stop. 

During these chill months, I did a lot of observations, life in general, friendships, family, literally everything. what all of these have done to me and taught me is more than I could ever speak of, I hope this makes sense to you. 

Forgiveness!

So this year I was in the middle of a life crisis, sort of. And during that period, I had so much in my mind and I did not know how to talk to God about it.

People talk about forgiving others but as important as that is, I think forgiving yourself is paramount. 

 I hated myself. My cell leader said something about doing some things that you'd need the Holy Spirit to help you forgive yourself, and no truer words. The word of God! It was all I had.

God isn’t intimidated by our mess, and he certainly isn’t bothered by it. He’s not a judgy house guest who looks inside the messy interior of our lives and flinches. He is the type of friend who rolls up his sleeves and gets to work, no explanation from you whatsoever is needed. He isn’t willing to leave our pain and destruction undealt with. He insists on rebuilding the ruins of our lives where others have carelessly torn us down. However, we have to be willing participants in our healing process.

 Psalms 51:17 "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise".

Know this, there is nothing God’s careful hand cannot repair, if only we’d open the door and let him in.

During that period I confided in someone and I did lose that person, the weight of our burdens can only be borne by Jesus. So I knew at some point I would have to go to Him, I was but you see that very topic? I was racing from it, shy, scared, disappointed, and it kept aching in my heart until I couldn't anymore.

 Do you know what Jesus did? He told me it didn't matter, He wasn't even angry, it was all me. I the one who was too filthy for me, the scale for how unredeemable you are or how lost? Who decides if that addiction is permanent or if the scars won't fade? Forgive yourself!

Satan is the accuser. He will always label you by your sin to get you to think less of yourself. 

1 John 1:9 "If we [freely] admit that we have sinned and confess our sins, He is faithful and just [true to His own nature and promises], and will forgive our sins and cleanse us continually from all unrighteousness [our wrongdoing, everything not in conformity with His will and purpose]"

So the next time the devil reminds you of your sins, respond with "forgiven and cleansed, bye!"

Until we learn to forgive ourselves, we cannot give what we do not have. And until we have received it from our Lord Jesus. 

Dear friend, it's time to let go and let God

Psalms 103:12 "As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us"

   When measured in a straight line from pole to pole, Earth's diameter is 7,899 miles. However, if you were to travel halfway around the planet from one pole to the other, the distance covered would be approximately 12,429 miles. The important point to note is that Earth has both a north pole and a south pole, which allows us to measure the distance from the northernmost point to the southernmost point."

But you see from the east to the west, there are no points to measure from, so there’s no way you can tell the distance of the east from the west! Now you get the point. God is not measuring.

Would you rather become an overcomer or remain a victim? Listen to the Apostle Paul

Philippians 3:13-14 "Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,

I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus."

You change your thoughts by meditating (thinking on) the Word of God. Forgive yourself, and replace thoughts of condemnation and shame with what God says about you. 

Put your past behind you and trust God, I love you, and welcome to a new dispensation.